It sucks knowing that my best isn’t good enough. All that hard work I put myself through everyday, all the pain and fatigue I experienced, seems useless when the ideal outcome isn’t reached. Is it too hard to see some results, because it seems everyone else thinks I deserve it. The only thing standing in my way is myself: it’s just I don’t believe that I deserve to be up there because I don’t think I’m as good as those other varsity girls..I think I just need to gain some confidence in myself, and maybe I’ll get the results I want….idk some food for thought..
